Susan's Road Trip to California--Continued

This is probably the longest road trip EVER. Before it ends back in Texas next year sometime I will have experienced many things from ecstatic spiritual highs to deep humility and pain. In the end I will come out stronger and knowing more than ever. My TX pastor said it best--I have a great CAPACITY to grow spiritually. If only it weren't so hard to do. If only you could fail alone.

Monday, January 05, 2004

In Quitman today the temperature is topping out at about 40 degrees; tonight it will be 22 or less. Yikes I am COLD! I forgot how miserable cold can be as I started work today in college-land. Oh, how delightful to be treated as a PROFESSIONAL. Okay, yeah, I had an in-service schedule—but no one cared if I went to any meetings. I did not see a sign in sheet all the glorious day. I attended only the morning assembly before my immediate supervisor took me aside so we could talk-then we went and met my assistant in journalism. I spent all day in the newsroom. I attended no more meetings. Tomorrow’s 9-5 schedule is now 9-12 for Susan—there is some mandatory meting in the morning but that is it. After lunch is an OPTIONAL 4 hour CPR class. Like DUH!!!

I was welcomed by everyone I met but knew even more. My supervisor was amazed. She kept introducing me to people I knew well! It was funny-and it probably made me look good. That is what I need. Although I think the real effort will simply be in if they can GET the full time position approved. That is hanging in the air for now—looks good, but no promises. That is the only downside—can’t get your heart fully involved til you KNOW.

On the other side of my brain is what is happening spiritually. Something major happened last night and yet today it is so normal in the world that I almost wonder if I imagined it all—even though I know I didn’t. Tonight I emailed Camilla to ask her for some Scriptures she gave me years ago explaining something I didn’t understand—only this time I was asking because it is happening to me. This followed the astounding, powerful prayer time last night and the changes that I am not even sure I understand. I made one tangible change and though it has only been a day I notice no difference—after almost two years I wonder if I will at all. All I know is that I believe God did something. I believe Robin—I believe the anointing in her, and I responded based on what I had in my head afterwards. So I acted in faith. I have not told Robin yet, but she will understand how significant it is. I suppose we won’t know for weeks. This blog will be long over.

Yes, folks, it will. The ONLY hold up is finishing that long final entry where I tell the rest of the story. I just need to take time and sit down and do it. I think now that I have found the answer, the ending of the story, I have no real desire to continue this blog. I maybe start another, perhaps for other purposes. But the road trip is over. Sometimes you learn things in a week on the road, and sometimes it takes nine months, but you either learn or waste away in that area. God is faithful. And now the learning has expanded. I don’t know what He is doing right now. I don’t comprehend it. I am used to my mind being actually engaged but that is it. So there are new paths ahead, new things for my God and me to do together.

I will embrace every moment!



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