I realized just a minute ago that this blog really is almost done. I have said that I was finishing it before, but it wasn’t in my heart—it was formulaic. But the season is over. I am not sure exactly WHEN I will finish it. But I know it is about done. I guess one thing I have to do is write down the last revelation—the greatest one of all. Literally, it is the greatest. I am not up to that yet—I am far too busy rushing around and doing the crazy life settling stuff, but it won’t be long. I clicked on the blog file tonight and I just saw it—it is almost over. And that is good.

I am not who I was when I began. In less than a year I have grown many more. I grew the hard way. Still, I grew.

Today I got an apartment. It is a lovely town home. I was wandering around a store looking at furniture in complete awe. I had not yet been approved for the apartment but I knew I was going to be. I have never in my life had as much peace as I have had in the last month. I knew it was happening and I was in complete awe. How could this be REAL? I wondered. God is so merciful that it is astounding. This apartment is mine? This job? I am getting new furniture? But wait! I am Susan Tyrrell… it is not supposed to be that way. God thinks otherwise, I guess. I will never understand a mercy so great.

So I am in awe. He has restored all the enemy sought to steal, but with greater depth and quality than before. The people, the places the life… A few months ago in my own ignorance and fear I practically cursed Him. Now I can only weep in repentance for such an act. I love and worship and adore my Abba Father. He is the reason I live.

What other reason IS there to live?