I am dragging a bit today and wondered why and then I realized. It happened when I was down in the office at work a bit ago. I passed Hasmik, my boss, and we were chatting briefly and she said she had not filled my position yet. I was talking to myself, and then the Lord and saying I wished she would fill it already so there is no chance they ask me to stay! Seriously that is highly unlikely anyway, but since I have submitted it all to the Lord I have told Him I would even stay HERE if I had to—but boy, that would be all God because that would be hard. BUT then it occurred to me that IF that happened it would HAVE to be the Lord and I think I would be excited. And even as I said that I felt that excitement rise up in me again. That excitement is the consuming Spirit of God that has been constantly present since the breakthough of Nov. 21.

And then I realized that I am dragging because now that all this has happened spiritually I am SO HUNGRY to plunge in and I can’t until I know where I am going! So I must say that limbo is no longer cool—I am still not demanding where I go. I am open--thouh I think I DO have a preference, but it doesn't HAVE to happen. But I think knowing is more important because I want to serve God—I want to establish relationships—I want to live completely again and I can’t make plans and stuff not knowing. So it is hard. I know I will know soon—at least I hope so! But so far it is a mystery, and so I must sit.

The good news is that I am sitting at the feet of Jesus. That makes it easier. And I am having an incredible awesome, Spirit filled time.

I am reading a new book on the Holy Spirit and last night and this morning have been reading about the MEASURE of the Spirit on people. I don’t know why I have never paid much attention to this fact before. But it is wholly biblical—and boy am I praying for an outpouring.

Let the river flow!