I really, really don't like my job.

Unfortunately there is only one job open in East Texas and not only is it far from home, but it may be already filled anyway.

My nice neighbors hung their child's witch on a banner outside on our balcony. I want to cry. I want to move NOW. We can celebrate every religion but true Christianity around here and it makes me sick (actually maybe it does!).

In other news my Thanksgiving plans are being met with complications in Tyler. I don't think I am wanted anywhere and I don't know WHAT to do. As of now it looks like I will be alone and stranded on my birthday in Tyler until I can get to Karen in Forney--IF I can. So far I have asked many people and no one can take me. Still waiting to hear from one or two. I am starting to get nervous about this!

I hate holidays for this very reason--they bring the conditions that come with relationships out in the open. I am having a very difficult time personally with this right now. I don't know WHAT to do. If I could pay for a hotel and rental car I would but the prices are more than plane tickets for one day!

I am scared.

I am homesick.

I need a job.

I need out.