My song arrived today—“Beautiful One.” When I get new music, I usually wait til I take a great car ride to listen to it, but this one I stuck in my CD. I am in love with this song. The church sings sit just like the CD. I hope I can turn Pastor Dan on to it!

I had a good day at work and that helped a lot. I found out from the co-principal—Kevin—that I am well-regarded and well-liked and they want to involve me more. I am flattered and excited. I started to volunteer for something that would involve me more with the kids. We have to see if my schedule could be changed to accommodate it, so Kevin has to speak to Hasmik tomorrow. Right now there is no telling. They want me, I can tell—perhaps more than I want to do it. But it is not that simple. Still, it was the first time I left feeling full and happy. The way I used to feel—that is who I am and I felt like they began to see it. It is nice to be praised at work. “people want to be around you,” Kevin told me. Guess I have covered the ups and downs well at work.

The night was tough with a bit too much emotional intensity but I guess it is okay. Sometimes eye opening hurts, but helps at the same time. At least you know where you stand and can move from that vantage point.

Meanwhile I am on a fierce drive to pay bills. Like I have this intense need to pay off all these small bills I have and it is funny because I am paying them without even seeing how much money I have left—like I just have to pay everything. There is more to this, but it is wild—it started last week. I found out today I do not have to have retirement deducted from my check for the first year. WOW! I wrote David and asked his expert opinion—he is the finance expert—and he agreed that if I used that money to pay some bills and that supports the basic rules of finance. Amazing I could possibly have a good financial idea! I think I am going to do it. I don’t know what has come over me in recent weeks, but there is sure nothing wrong with paying bills! Anyway, I am on the rampage. I love electronic payments. I am sitting here going to websites and paying bills randomly. WEIRD STUFF!!! Of course I don’t have money to pay them all off, but maybe with the retirement income I can. What is the deal with saving for retirement when you owe now? I am POWER PAYING!!!

Katie from Blue Mountain wrote back and said that flying into Newark was easy so I can easily save $100 there. Not sure about Dallas yet. I think it can go cheaper. Ticket buying is a gamble. You wait until it goes as low as you believe it will go, then you buy. If you calculate wrong you lose out and miss the trip or pay through the roof. In my case I would have to miss the trip—so I am gable with fares and hope I get it right… we will see.

Anyway, tomorrow could bring some new stuff.