Anticipating days upon days of take out and restaurant food, I opted for a lunch of a Lean Pocket and can of asparagus with tomato. Then I got home and realized, DUH, I had packed my can opener. Feeling like a boxcar kid, I found a flathead screwdriver and attacked the can. It took a while but the primitive method proved fruitful (or should that be vegetableful?) and I had my lunch.

David can’t come see me dance. I will probably never ask him again. My mom used to call it beating a dead horse. Some things are not worth the disappointment.

I can store my stuff in Pasadena for one dollar—that came from my rental truck. Amazing how cheap that all is turning out to be. Thank God. I cleaned my car and vacuumed it for the trip today. I bought a UT Tyler t-shirt to take along. Texas was my life for nine years; I can’t abandon it that quickly. I love the shirt because it talks about the school being established in 1979 and it is a football shirt that says “Still Undefeated.” Anyone who knows UTT knows that is the ultimate irony because here in Football Land, UTT doesn’t even HAVE a football team. I bought it for the irony.

Dr. Hayes could have seen me but the trip didn’t work. David and Dr. Hayes. Two of my best male friends, so much the same, but so so different.

I wish people would shut up about men. If it is GOD then I want to hear it from God’s heart, not the myriad of people. If it is not, then I don’t need to hear it at all. Why does that have to be the next logical progression? Except Robin. Robin can say anything she wants to me.

I went to early prayer today. I loved it. By Friday they will have to drag me kicking and screaming out of there. How I will miss that early hour.

How I will miss the known as I move to the unknown.