Will it surprise anyone that I am driving myself crazy? I have no job. I always have a job, but this summer I have, GASP, free time. What does a person used to tons of busyness do? I think it is actually EASIER To spend time with God when my time is limited. You know what I do now? I sit at this blasted computer plugging in searches for everything on earth related to moving and scare myself to death when I see things like car insurance rates. They are almost FOUR times what they are here—not that I won’t shop around, but so far it is looking BAD. Then TRS came back at me with a “up to ten weeks” timeframe to get me my check. I was trying to get out of her what the true average was. When you order things by mail they tell you “four to six weeks” and they usually come in 2-3, you know? She sounded like a government robot. “Up to ten weeks. Up to ten weeks.” The chant grated on my raw emotions.

I have mostly decided I can’t afford to roll over any money. I have sought wise counsel from financial friends. No one will make any time for me. I have been asking for weeks. So now it is too late. I need to have my forms at TRS before my trip to CA next week. I mean, after all, it could take “up to ten weeks up to ten weeks polly want a cracker up to ten weeks…”

I need to go to Vermont. I NEED to be away. I never want to go two weeks without working again. This is agony. I need my kids. Any kids. Give me a class to teach.

Sometimes I understand anarchy. The word literally means AGAINST (and without) GOVERNMENT. Let’s see, the insurance commission won’t regulate insurance rates (state agency), the TRS has to go through paperwork and have checks later issued by the STATE comptroller, the public colleges in Texas underwent STATE level budget cuts that, in effect, cut my summer job and I did not know it until a few days before, so I had no chance to get anything else. (Ironically CA had major education budget cuts too, but there they blame the Democratic governor and his agenda as a Democrat and here they blame the Republican governor and his agenda as a Republican—being a part of two states an the education cuts right now gives me a very interesting perspective on partisan issues!) The STATE of California wants 2 percent of the value of my vehicle, on top of regular registration fees, to let my car in the STATE.

Anarchy. Not a bad idea on days like this.