“I was thinking about you the other day, Miss Tyrrell,” Dr Hayes said to me today.

“Oh., yeah?” I asked. “What were you thinking?”

“I was thinking that wherever you go they will be fortunate to have you… you are loyal and a good person….” he said more, his praise resounding in my heart.

It sounded a lot like Barbara tonight who said that I deserved my job because “You are the best of the best.” I did not even think she was serious. She was.

How nice it is to hear these kind words of confidence. And yet Darrell’s words echo in my mind when I tell him I think he is the best and he is unimpressed with himself.

“I know where I am cut from, and it is not impressive” he says.

I got an epic from him today—he was writing a lot asking me if we could change my dance date. No big deal—even though I am chomping at the bit to do it. I will do it the first Sunday I am in LA officially—and that will be a nice way to enter and so it will be neat. But boy and I ready to do it somewhere. Even here in Tyler I probably won’t do it til July 25 or August 3 is Pastor Steven sticks with that last Sunday idea. So I will keep practicing—keep dancing with the Lover of my Soul.

I can dance on Pointe now for extended periods of time. I am going to have to enroll in a class once I get to LA. It is time.

It was so nice to sleep in. I can do about one more day of this before I have to get on some schedule though. Right now it is not looking really positive for my second summer session class—we need 15 enrolled all of a sudden and it is down. I need to get into a routine that allows me exercise that I am disciplined to do, more Bible reading than I do now, and more prayer time. Also, less eating time would be good! I will get there within a day or two.

I bought a new plane ticket today. Since March I have not lived a day or two without a plane ticket in my world. I will fly into Orange County this time because the fare was $195. Then I was pricing rental cars and they were all too high. Then I saw some special and if you clicked on the one link it was $119 for the week, but the same company listed its price at close to $200, Amazing what you can get if you read carefully. I decided I could swing it. By the time I drive and spend two nights in hotels I am spending almost $300 anyway.

After this last trip, Tyler really does not feel like home. The pangs and regret are gone. The certainty and peace floods my soul and I know that the next two months are simply a vacation in Tyler before I begin life in Los Angeles.

Maybe Barbara said it best when she told Jan why this was happening now:

She had to get free first.