Susan's Road Trip to California--Continued

This is probably the longest road trip EVER. Before it ends back in Texas next year sometime I will have experienced many things from ecstatic spiritual highs to deep humility and pain. In the end I will come out stronger and knowing more than ever. My TX pastor said it best--I have a great CAPACITY to grow spiritually. If only it weren't so hard to do. If only you could fail alone.

Saturday, May 03, 2003

I want to be a newlywed forever. Some people who have been married a long time are old and dry, others are still in love and more fresh. But people who have been married a long time are comfortable—whether in a good way or a bad way. Comfort comes with time, but there is something to be said for that newlywed mentality of learning to please another person and testing it all out and everything. And I decided that spiritually I want to stay that way—I never want to be comfortable with Jesus in a sense that I think I know what He is going to do next or something. I always want to keep this excitement like I am just married and so in love I can hardly stand it. In marriage growing comfortable can be VERY good, if it is the right kind, but spiritually I am not sure it is. It seems that comfortable turns into complacent—and that is when people start fighting about hymnals and prayer meetings become discussions of prayer requests, and passion dies.



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