I had my first appointment today. It was significant because it was spiritual leadership. It some ways, like the others, it was underwhelming. I think maybe I am the only one who sees it as being at all complicated. Tomorrow night: the dancers.

Right now is just a waiting time. I found a card today that I immediately bought and mailed to Terry. It was about not being able to imagine not having a million things to tell her and had a cute shot of two girls on the front sharing. I know she will laugh because I can’t stop telling her everything. Five and a half years and there is someone to tell who is there with me. I wanted to SCREAM last week when I was all excited and gushing and they told me to breathe. I AM BREATHING, I want to say. As the song says, “this is the air I breathe.” Terry inhales with me.

I am enjoying myself this week. Things are winding down. My after school class is almost over; some will be released this very week. My college class only meets one more time. We are working on the last issue of the paper. RaiderVision only has a few shows left. While the end of the year ends up being inordinately stressful, it is also comforting. My heart has been dancing to far away rhythms since March.

39 days.