Change comes again with more certainty and my life turns more toward a path I never expected. I can’t write about the change yet because it is not in my life and it is not my business to tell; I may only tell how it affects me. This leaves without a doubt an alteration in my life in the future. I expected it. In some ways I needed it; nevertheless, it is sad. Even good loss under right circumstances can feel sad in many ways.

Last night was awful because I had a nightmare. It was about something from a long time ago that changed my life indirectly. I know why I dreamed it; I know it is the downside to my fear of change. But I still didn’t like it!

I leave Friday. This trip has turned into more of a mission than it was ever intended to be. I have mixed feelings today. The story is definitely in the rising action, right where the twists and turns start.