5:38 a.m. and I could not easily sleep last night. Sleep is important for this weekend and late night God talk and prayer. I will sleep every chance I get over the next two days. I am looking at flights and realizing it is now TWO days away. I will teach just 9 more classes before I leave, sleep just two nights in my bed, only two days. Two. And then I find out. I find out if it is real. It is one thing to be caught up in the whirlwind. I have been. I feel like I have been in some crazy courtship. But this time it is planned. This time I know where I am headed. This time I will see if it is real. And if it is, IF this perception is right, I can never be the same. It scares me to death at the same time it makes my spirit dance with excitement.