It is after 11 and I just got home and inhaled food. I have been at work all day. I left only for church—and actually did not even want to tear myself away! I decided today that I had to make my video. So the broadcast journalism teacher got on the computer knowing less than her kids who are always on it. I asked a couple questions and went to work. As I speak my finished video is at work, exporting to both the camera and a VHS tape. I hope it all goes through okay, but if there is a glitch I will re-export tomorrow. I had a BLAST! I see why these kids like it so much. I can’t wait to make a new video. I have GOT to get this working at home. So part of the reason I am so happy—despite being holed up alone in an old makeshift broadcast studio for hours and hours—is because of the excitement, but also the video content. I have been re-living California all afternoon and night. I know it sounds wild, but the anointing is on that tape. It comes through and I sat there just praying and worshipping even as I edited.

I look at the video of me Darrell shot—I have probably seen it a dozen times now but the something strikes me each time. I look so genuinely happy and at peace. It was at the end of my three days there. I had 3 ½ hours of sleep, but I don’t know if I ever looked happier. I was glowing with the beautiful presence of God I had been under. It is even on that tape. I almost cry when I watch myself (sometimes I do). Tonight I sat there saying, “that is ME. THAT is who I am. And I have to have that.” I did not explain that well because I can’t. What do I have to have? It is not Darrell and Terry but the reality of Jesus through them. I recognize that. But I am thankful they are yielded instruments. Just two weeks and one day and I will be back. I have not talked to Terry in a bit over a week but I have had a few emails from Darrell. My face lights up to hear from him—I wish she had email too, but I guess it makes it even more special when we do talk. Besides it is more personal that way. Darrell said something on the tape, and I need to ask him about it. It was good though; all they both said was good. I am so blessed. So making the video was a doubly neat experience. I wish I had had oodles of time to seriously edit. I had great ideas. I wanted music and stuff, but I ended up using all the memory on what I had. Once it is saved on a VHS I will delete it, but that is why I had to finish. The kids have to edit RaiderVision tomorrow and they need the space. But it was a pleasure to be at work til 10:30 tonight. And I was actually working on something that will help me teach better too. This is the first serious time I have spent at this. I inserted a few titles here and there. My closing credits were my favorite. They say something like this:

Produced, edited and slaved over by Susan (who pointed her toes during this production) That was an inside joke to all the time I kept saying my toes were pointed!

Then I went on “Special thanks to her Father who rearranged her schedule to resurrect her dreams and give her new visions. Sometimes the most awesome things are Effortless."

Effortless sits alone in green as are the rest of the CA titles (the color of life and resurrection). Effortless is a word with Terry and me—with a poem a CD and a seeming word from God. The last frame shows that word alone in green. It almost takes my breath away.

Tonight someone at church said how I was going off to California because HE is there. I explained that HE is Jesus and I am having a passionate relationship with Jesus like I have never had. He said, “Well, I guess if he came all the way from Heaven the least she can do is go to California.”

Yup.