3/17/03—1:25 a.m. I arrived home around 1. While it was nice to be out of the car, once I saw Dallas, I was aware of just how FAR from Los Angeles I am. Terry called this afternoon and told me about church today. I told her how I had cried and cried this morning. It killed me to get n my car and drive and not be at church with them. Then she told me she saw the lady at the church who had brought in the flags and tambourines and stuff and told her about me and the dance they had asked me to do. She said the lady got teary-eyed about it. And Terry vows the next time she hears the song will be when I dance to it. But she might see me sooner. After this morning’s crying and praying, I realized I cannot wait til June to return. I asked her if I could come for a weekend. She said, of course, I did not even have to ask. So I am looking for a bargain fare. It is that important to me. I found life and breath in a place the Spirit of God dwells. And I had to leave it too soon. Never before have I had friends so LIKE me in thinking and philosophy—and to think they are old friends, and pastors, that I have known for 13 years makes it even more special. I mean at some points they would say things word for word how I do, without knowing it! It is not that I have friends that I don’t like how they think or anything that is bad; that is not a negative statement. Its I just that when you meet kindred spirits, you want to flock. I have a strong sense of some of what God is doing, but I can’t pinpoint it. Of all places they have to live in LA. YUCK! But I guess I will be spending all my free time there! The video is neat—just the raw footage, so far; I will edit later. Terry said she might want to put something together for June, like a one day worship dance seminar. I am willing if not sure I am qualified enough. Starting in the morning I study hard. I will know my tambourine and dance. I will know my Scripture even better. I could never have dreamed I would need it this way! Besides needing it for there if she has me do it, and she sounds pretty serious, and it is her call, I need to study the dance part for me. I am telling you, God is absolutely giving me this dance they asked me to do. But it has 8 grand jetes, chanais turns, piques, and bunches of stuff that will look really BAD if I don’t practice really hard! Anyway, now I know I need sleep too. I had to pull over just past Abilene and just drift for 10 minutes to be able to function. So yeah, I need sleep. I also need a plane ticket to Burbank.